"Remember one thing:
when all you ever do is try to please others, the only one you’ll let down is yourself."

I haven't said before that my life was bad, but this is bad. You'll find how much nightmares you've been afraid of in me.

I don't know whether he's getting too old, or we stay young, but the Born and Raised album is supposed to listen in the porch while having a cup of hot tea in your late 40s. You look back at your life, remember what you've done; your failure, your success, your fault, your regret, your disappointment; but at your age--with what you've been through, you know all you can do is just letting it go, and move on.

So after all the brokenheart and galauness songs in Battle Studies album, he wants to tell us to move on and look deep at our life, and, somehow just live it. He might lose his youth soul. The album is so country and folk, he can even have duet with Tantowi Yahya. I'm not saying the album is bad, it's just, I don't listen John Mayer songs the way I used to.

I have to add his first single, Shadow Days, has beautiful lyrics. The most beautiful ever. I love it from the first sentence to the last were amazing. His thought was brilliant, and you can love it at the first time you listen it. But while you listen to the whole album, you might feel like, "was that really you, John?".



remember what he said in Stop This Train song,
So scared of getting older,
I'm only good at being young

He might just too scared,
and force us to be old with him.

But, youth is just a matter of mindset. The youth soul live forever no matter what your age is.
We can be forever young though.

It's just how you choose you want to live your life with.

but then again, who am I to judge?

I don't want to make a resolution for this year.

Kalau kesabaran sudah dibatasi untuk sesuatu,
dan sesuatu yang terbatasi oleh kesabaran adalah hidup saya sendiri,
apa yang bisa saya lakukan?

Jika semesta memang lupa untuk memasukkan plot bahagia dalam kisah saya,
menambahkan kepedihan atas nama pelajaran,
menumbuhkan penghujatan atas nama kesabaran,
lantas, apa yang sebenarnya semesta inginkan dari saya?

Pertanyaan demi pertanyaan,
yang semakin banyak bukan semakin terjawab malah semakin memusingkan.

Tentang hidup.
Tentang semesta.
Serta diantara keduanya.

Katanya, orang pasti lebih memiliki hati atau lebih memiliki otak dalam menjalani hidup yang ia pilih.

Katanya, "If you can't do something smart, do something good."

Saya sungguh tidak mengerti mereka yang menertawakan atas musibah orang lain.
Di mana hati mereka?
Di mana otak mereka?

Saya rasa yang tersisa dalam diri mereka hanyalah kotoran saja.



Di sini. Saat ini.
Sekali lagi.


Saya tidak akan pernah percaya dengan 'sahabat'

feel like sending postcards. anyone?

Look at me, you may think you see who I really am
But you’ll never know me

When the word "why" is not enough to explain what have happened in your life lately. It goes ups and downs. It runs from somewhere to nowhere. It walks down the pathways, yet climbs cruelly to the peak.